Stillframe

Deeper Than I Thought

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

I don't want to feel this way
Every day, it's all the same
Smile but you forgot my name - what's new?

I just wanted to belong
But everything I did was wrong
Tolerate, but not for long from you

CHORUS

I'm not worth your afterthought
I'm ashamed of what I'm not

VERSE

So finally everything exposed
So finally, and then she reposed
So tell me, what am I supposed to do?
All the changes that you missed
You want my feigned innocence
All that was and all that is, untrue

BRIDGE

Prove to me, that I still need
Tell me what you see

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

You look at me, you want to say
I'm sorry
Should I forget so easily
You've scarred me

CHORUS

And thanks to you, I've found a way
Torturing myself every day
You'd reconcile, but it's too late
All that I love just turns to hate

VERSE

You've always thought I needed you
You're so wrong
Pretending all your lies were true
For so long

BRIDGE

And thanks to you, I'm stronger now
I'd like to change, I don't know how
Brought me down to feel this way
I wish this would just go away

 

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

It's piteous, that I should need
It's hideous, the way you think
And between us, there is nothing
And you're above even caring

CHORUS

All the things you saw in me are withering
And I can't say that I'm past remembering
All the plans you had for me have all gone wrong
Turn your back on me because I don't belong

VERSE

This disgust is filling me
I've had enough of these feelings
It's serious - you're denying
And all my trust is receding

 

Stillframe

Lyrics

VERSE

I watch you sell yourself away
I see you keep yourself at bay
And I have nothing left to say to you

Yesterday just out of reach
Our thoughts, our dreams all turn to bittersweet
And I have nothing left to teach to you

PRE-CHORUS

Don't you leave me here
Then I watch you disappear
Well I have nothing left to hold near

CHORUS

Give me something to believe
Cut me open, watch me bleed
Drain me until I'm empty
Leave this as a memory

VERSE

I see you sleep inside the womb
I watch the tides obey the moon
And I have nothing left to prove to you

I see you try to find yourself
Give that away to someone else
And I have nothing of myself for you

 

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

I lost my way
I can't escape
Is it supposed to be this way?
Useless, ashamed
Makes me feel this way, and I do

CHORUS

Bitter to you
I feel
Bitter to you

VERSE

I can't reach you
I can't get through
Is it supposed to be this way?
Fake and confused
Makes me feel this way, and I do

BRIDGE

I crawl under you
I fall under you
It's all under you
It's all under you


Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

Let you inside
I've seen your lies before
Unsatisfied
Hazy, dim metaphor

PRE-CHORUS

I'm finding a way
Losing face

CHORUS

I am deeper than I thought
This must be the cost I pay to see
Everything so clear

VERSE

Look through dull eyes
Sad, it's past your control
Uncompromised
I can't let some things go

 

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

Leave me here finding words to say
Watching the passion die away
Don't tell me how this has to end
Put rest to all that you pretend

CHORUS

And then I find your face behind my eyes
I look inside, discover what has died
I live a lie built by my own design
I'll crucify a place for your denials

VERSE

I've found I have no place to go
I feel myself crawl down that hole
And now this all seems bittersweet
You watch me die when our eyes meet

 

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

Nothing left to keep us warm
The salt still lines your eyes
Searching feelings unexplored
And all that we've denied

CHORUS

Denied, is there anything inside?
Resigned, will we fail at all our tries?

VERSE

Trepidation on your wings
You're changing your disguise
Passions act as god's playthings
And all our sins denied

BRIDGE

Hesitate, lingering
But you're above all of these things
Are you proud of yourself now?

 

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

Never had the time for me
Close the door right in my face
Pardon me if I don't grieve
The things in me that you erased

PRE-CHORUS

Can't find anything to cope
I'm an abject misathrope

CHORUS

I can feel this slip away
Doesn't matter what you say
I hear you expectorate
My name with all of your hate
You taught this to me
Hate all that I see
Slave to memory, my fate

VERSE

Pretending like you'll leave me be
Then drag me back to take some more
Forgive this lack of sympathy
Now your turn to be ignored

 

Stillframe
by Charlie Griggs

Lyrics

VERSE

I don't need you
Lies I see through

You made me, with your lies
All your failures, all your tries

CHORUS

So take away all that I have
I am tired of your demands
Never reaching out to me
Well, I don't need your sympathy

VERSE

I can't bear this
Lost and hopeless

Look at me, realize
I have become what you despise

BRIDGE

The hate you feel won't go away